happy = short tempered bitch

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.” Buddha 72/365

i'm not sure if people know this, but i have a very short fuse. almost to the point to where i need anger management. because i am a very angry person, despite my nickname. (happy, if you didn't know, is my nickname) and when i'm angry.... whoooo... you do NOT wanna be around to see me. and since you never WILL be around to see me when i'm raging with my tiny asian fury, i'm just going to list the things that i do when i'm furious.

*10 Things Happy Does When She's Engulfed in her Rage*

1. Cuss up a storm. i'm a huge pottymouth when i'm normal. you can only imagine how much cussin' goes on when i'm actually angry. my favorite thing to do is to add the adjective 'fuckin' to every word. it just seems right at the time.
2. Get violent. yes, i'm guilty as charged. i'm a violent angry person. i throw things. i kick things. i slam doors. and if given a punching bag, i'm pretty sure i could punch a hole right through it. i should probably invest in a punching bag soon. i don't think my doors can take any more abuse >_<
3. Never discuss with others why I'm angry. online. sure. one the phone or in person, i have a hard time unless i'm already a little bit cooled down. cuz if i'm still angry, i do the next thing on the list.
4. Cry. i'm a big baby. if i start talking about what i'm mad at, i start crying. which is why i'd rather just tell everyone "FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!" compensating for something else -___-
5. Brush my hair. hahaha kinda random sounding, right? Yeah, i brush my hair because it always feel calming to me. mmmmm...
6. Smoke. -smacks self- bad. bad bad. well no i don't anymore. but yeahh it calmed my nerves a lot too.
7. Turn up the volume. i like to shut everyone out if i'm angry. i'll turn the volume up on the tv, even if its as stupid as hannah montana on. if miley cyrus's voice can drown out everyone else's in the house, then its fine by me.
8. Eat. ahhhh... thats why i'm such a fatty. and when i'm angry when i eat, i eat like a beast. not in the sense of, i eat a lot. but i eat LIKE one. as in the angry chomping and shoving handfuls into my mouth.... its gross. another reason why i don't people around when i'm angry.
9. Internet surf. anything to get my mind off the topic. i usually end up going to Fmylife.com though...
10. Sit. and just think. usually daydream about revenge and ill thoughts. 'cause i'm an awful person like that T_T

ugghh i hate being angry. i'm actually ANGRY that i am ANGRY. does that make sense?!
WTF!