getting into the swing of things

i've never tried so hard to push someone away from my life. but i'm glad i am.
i'm getting better at this, and feel like i'm getting back into the swing of being single. i haven't been single since high school started. always been jumping from boy to boy to boy. since the last three relationships had like no breaks between, i almost forgot what it was like to be single. it was so... awkward feeling. not having anyone to sweet talk to before i went to bed. once i came to the realization that all that sweet talk was nothing but bullshit, i started sleeping better. i found it less difficult to occupy myself.

its funny trying to be single again. haha seriously! today, or yesterday(its like 4am), i headed over to gsp with kamille and aaron. kamille and i had decided we had enough with guys and went to the mall as 'girlfriends for the day' LOL we held hands, linked pinkies and everything. hehe i felt so silly but it was fun acting goofy. eventually, we walked past some 3D laser engraving kiosk er something.. and there was a cute guy working. ;] i didn't say anything, but when kamille brought him up, we started giggling like dumb high school girls again. at one point eventually, we walked back to the kiosk and started talking to him. hehe foreign guys are cute. things got kinda funny though when he asked to buy my phone. no, not my number. he just wanted my phone. LOL weird.. but whatever. it was fun for what it was

today, while driving around, we started talking about high school and how we were so easily amused back then. it was such a treat to even get out once in awhile! and for some reason, we always felt like we had something to do when we were out. now that most of us (except me) have a car... theres nothing to do. we lounge around wherever, wondering what the hell we could do in this godforsaken area known as rockland county -___-

regardless, its good being in the company of good friends. friends who won't lecture me whenever i say "fuck the world!" nope. these are the friends who put their arms around my shoulder and yell "fuck the world!" along side with me :]

love ya guys<3